In
retrospect, it was the last attempt of my body to wake me up: a final wake-up
call to stop with the things I was doing and open up to what was waiting for
me. Not an easy process I can tell you. A process that took a long, 13-months,
time. Actually it’s still going on.
Without
even having noticed it myself and step by step, I was completely out of my
(holistic) balance. Yes, I was a manager at that time. It turned out managing
my own life was something different and I needed to learn a lot about that. Up
to that point I never gave that process the right attention.
So what kind
of manager was I when I was not even able to manage my own life? Now I know I
am not the only one…
I was out
of balance. Physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and also causally, I
was living in an imbalance of energy givers and energy drainers: Giving too
much and receiving too little.
Conclusion?
A burn-out and not a small one.
Too late
or maybe just in time. In my life so far I discovered that the universe has a
fantastic synchronicity. A main insight. This synchronicity makes sure that everything
moves and interacts with everything else. Miracles happen around us in a
continuing stream. You only have to stand still for a moment and take the time
to look or even better to look deeper. And this synchronicity clearly has to do
with me, with us. Many wanted, and sometimes also unwanted, gifts are waiting
for us...
The
question is, how does that relate to us? Do we see those wonders, inside and
outside of ourselves, and how do we deal with them? If we are too busy or our
mind is too hectic, the magic of the moment can completely escape to us.
Synchronicity
also works in this way; If one door, wanted or unwanted, closes for you,
another door automatically will open itself. A new, until then unknown, space,
full of previously unknown chances and opportunities unfolds for you.
Now,
looking back, I can say that that this accident was not unfortunate at all. It
was painful at that time and during the period of recovering (or maybe better
to say letting go). But synchronicity brought me here, in Asia, to my mission.
I now have a much higher feeling of happiness/bliss, and find myself in an
environment that suits me even more.
As I look
back on my life until now, everything that happened was necessary to create the
person that I am now and to bring or keep me on the life path I much more
consciously can walk.
And what
the world is thinking of me or what people can read on the internet? That is up
to the world. I am the only one who knows the real stories. I can now laugh
about everyone else's interpretations. For me there is nothing to feel or be
ashamed of.
If the
sun did not rise for me tomorrow… I did it!
I am
Living (with a capital “L”) a much more engaged, happy, connected, life and
lifestyle.
I am
studying, developing, giving things a try, constructing and growing by
sharing.
Gangey Gruma (Frans Captijn)
Captijn Insight. Catalyst in developing tranquility & in-sight to get in a sustainable way real connection, purpose, pleasure and flow in life, love, family, business, career and work again.
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