Friday, June 28, 2019

Take a vacation when you go on a holiday!

In many countries it is holiday time again. Long awaited and often a lot of time spent on finding the place where you want to go and stay this year. Maybe you stay at home because you do not even know that place well enough or you made the choice to just only get away from the routine of everyday life and work stress.

What about the maybe strange title of this week's blog? After all, when you go on a holiday, don't you take vacation? Well ... for me that is becoming less and less certain. The reason to choose that title.

I still remember the often hard discussions with the unions about the fees that, apart from special duty services, had to be paid not only for availability but also for the accessibility of staff members. It was still the time of alarm receivers, walky-talkies and pagers. After all, it wasn't all a totally voluntary choice just to be there for your employer. Not even if, for example, you worked at the fire department or ambulance service.

Whether or not they are still being paid for, it looks like nowadays everyone voluntarily has chosen to be accessible at all times. People can't live without this phenomenon anymore. Last week I even heard of neck complaints that people need to be treated for. Yes, your head still weighs around six kilograms (over thirteen pounds) and having that weight hanging down, pulling the strings, for an average of 16 hours a day is of course quite a challenge for those neck muscles.

And the strange thing is that when people go on vacation, they are no longer even aware of that continuous accessibility. In many cases, work therefore continues as normal (nevertheless check that e-mail every morning). Continue to follow social media, etc ..

Holiday time is there to come home with yourself and to relax. To empty your mind. To switch off from daily energy consuming activities. Getting to know new people and often also exploring the (or a new) environment. Spend time with your partner and/or family and friends. To marvel once again at the world around you that you have actually put on a not or less important place in your live for a long time. Tighten up ties with the people in your life that really matter. To experience what you came for and expected to see and feel.

As strange as it may sound, I think that more than 70% of the tourists I meet here in Chiang Mai and Northern Thailand could have stayed better at home. They do not enjoy all that beauty and beautiful nature surrounding us at all. They are constantly hanging around only on their cell phones and when I come across them on the road in minibuses or so-called Songthaews they are usually sleeping against each other. The beauty and energy of nature, the friendliness of the Thai people and the coziness of the city are hardly experienced.

I sometimes think they could have saved the time and money of their trip if they had really taken the time at home to delve into this environment. Enough YouTube videos that give you even a better feeling and sight than being here in a not connected and aware state.


How to ruin your holidays
Just ask yourself; How long could you live without your smartphone? What is an alcoholic? What? An alcoholic is someone addicted to alcohol. Yeah. Why is he/she addicted to alcohol? Because he cannot stop drinking it. But you can’t put your phone down. And if you do, within a few minutes you pick it up again. Because you are addicted to it. So, are you controlling that bit of technology in your hand? Or is that controlling you? That is controlling you!  Do you want your life controlled by a bit of technology? Do you want the rest of your life, even your holidays now, controlled by it? Or are you now going to: ‘I am putting this down!’. If technology is going to be the servant rather than the governor it has to serve the interest of humanity and humanity does not have to serve it. We are in a situation now where humanity is serving technology. And increasingly it is serving others to bring us into a different (by them) managed world. Step by step prepared by them so you are not even aware you are less and less in charge of your own life (so also holidays).

Time for vacation? That is emptying and recharging. Enjoy each other’s company again. Invest in your relationship (if you have one). Give yourself the gift to once again connect with, if you are honest with yourself, what you have neglected in the past few months. Give your mobile a holiday too (who knows, you might dare to take the challenge to leave it at home) and count on the respect of your friends, colleagues and work, that you now use your time private, for you. Hoping they have the understanding you will be there for them again in a fresh and even better way when you are back. Actually, the reason why you took that holiday isn’t it?

Don’t think the world (and your work) cannot miss you. Unfortunately, you are never and nowhere indispensable. Not even for your work. Yes, once I thought in a different way but I changed that after having this experience.  
And if, being a manager, you think that you should always and everywhere be accessible, because you are responsible aren’t you, then ask yourself what kind of manager you really are that you cannot even manage your own private life.

And back to that head again.
If you, instead of letting it drop to stay connected with your mobile, try to put it in the right position. Ever thought when your head is in balance (nearly looking straight forward) the muscles do not tense up (extension, out of tension) so this not cost you energy (I learned from yoga)?  It is a relaxation of the muscles although for a short while, because you are not used to it anymore it does not feel this way.
The great thing of bringing your head in balance again is that immediately a completely ‘different’ world in which you live will reveal itself to you. Look around, be aware again. This was where you paid for and what you wanted to see and feel.

Now time for yourself and time for each other. Respect to yourself and your love ones.
Time to enjoy the expedition that is called holidays you have been looking forward to.

Enjoy so much more!

Happy Holidays.


Gangey Gruma (Frans Captijn)

Captijn InsightCatalyst in developing tranquility & in-sight to get in a sustainable way real connection, purpose, pleasure and flow in life, love, family, business, career and work again.


Friday, June 21, 2019

Don't worry about your study choice. It does not limit your (uncertain) future.

One evening, a few weeks ago, I had a conversation with a young Chinese woman. She was in tears. She told me she didn't know which study to choose and missed a goal in her life. What about that? All her friends already had and she still did not find answers. Her parents were very concerned about that. They had a study direction for her future (and expectations) in mind that also fit into their family tradition, but she didn't like that at all. Only thinking about that made her feel very unhappy, emotional and even sick.

When I look back at my experiences with many staff members with whom I was allowed to work with in various places, and also at the many people I have met here in Thailand so far, I am always amazed by all those personal stories and wanderings people have made in their life. With regard to their work and occupation, they have in most cases ended up very differently from what they had previously studied and intended to do in the future. Do you call that a study choice mistake? In my eyes this type of mistakes do not exist at all. Don’t worry there are ‘wrong’ choices in this.

I still remember my own school and student time, as well as my children's time in this. It was sometimes pretended by others, even my parents, that your life and future depended on what study you would choose.
In fact at the end of primary school, it starts with maddening parents, and also children, in relation to the results of the testing and the associated school advice for your next steps to make.

Looking back at it, you were taught a kind of stress. Crazy thoughts as if your choice would be ‘wrong’ and if you were to achieve a too low level, well then you were completely doomed to bring it far up the social ladder in your life. Practice shows that this is all nonsense. My personal experience is different and also that of the many people I was allowed to work with and that I received here during life & talent coaching. So many examples of people who found their ultimate (work) happiness totally different from what they studied or were trained for.

After my primary school I received a high middle/high school advice. After a year I was thrown out of that school and I went to low middle school. A shame?  Looking back, it was a fantastic experience, it was the right step to learn how to learn and… it was great fun. Then back to high level college again. After all, 3 years wasted? No, of course not. Yes, in the eyes of those people who want to get straight to their goal. In my eyes now, six years of experience richer. So much, lessons and life experiences learned, fun and the experience of learning with pleasure in connection. This time was the birthplace, or initiator, of my creativity.
I myself once started in the hospitality branch and got my degrees to run a hotel, cafe, restaurant. I worked in it for 4.5 years. I did a training to become a truck and coach driver. Worked only briefly in it and yet again an experience in my backpack. Ski instructor, what fun and bliss. Contractional engineer and architecture. Worked in that profession for a while in Saudi Arabia. Then the academy of fire & rescue service up to and including Master of Crisis and Disaster Management. After that Buddhist philosophy, theatre school, and life & talent coaching and two years ago I finished to call myself Kundalini yoga teacher. And I think there will probably be something more to come on my path.

People sometimes think strangely about my daughter’s study and future. She has such a nice degree from her study Oriental languages ​​(Chinese business and communication) in her pocket. After she got it, she went to Australia. She started with farm work, taking care of horses and cows (for her Visa) and had and has a great experience. Especially with her boss who acks as a kind of second father and appreciates the way she supports in the job. And for a year and a half now she is doing a study in engineering for special vehicles for the mining industry in Australia. A kind of combined car, hydraulic and air conditioning technician. A matter of just doing and following your feeling. Really something else than Chinese. So far she shines.

My son is still faithful to his basic profession as an animal caretaker. He has had some intermediate steps in technology and as a professional soldier. Just tasting to see (because he knows) there is more for him. And he also feels free to make totally different choices when he thinks it will make him happier. He is a different type and takes the time to make steps instead of to just jump.

My girlfriend went to university here in Thailand and got her university degree in food sciences with a specialization in poultry farming industry. She worked fairly briefly in it and found out that the financial world (the banking system and market) so far was more reserved for her. And who knows she is also changing direction. She is open to it.

The nice thing about all four of us is that if you look at our trees of like (personal trees of talents), the things that have come our way fit exactly. It seems like a sort of surrender to what nature had in store for you. And that does not only apply to the four of us, but to everyone with whom I have been able to work with so far.

Last Wednesday evening we welcomed a new member to our photo club. A nice story of how it works in practice. Until he was 21, he absolutely did not know what he wanted to do, he said. At that moment, just for fun, he got a camera in his hand and started working with it. Learning by doing. Someone noticed that he was taking beautiful pictures. He went on and made progress. Also started with making movies what turned out to be an international film director now. He met his wife who is also a photographer and filmmaker. They travel all over the world and make documentaries, photo reports and give courses worldwide, earning lots of money earning a wonderful living with their activities. Reason enough to take a break now and then in Chiang Mai.

My advice is not to worry so much about whether or not you make "the right" study choices, but especially to choose what you think you can enjoy most in your personal development at that moment. Something that stimulates you to develop in a playful way. What does not say (only) go for partying because at the long term this will not offer you the development of all the talents you have in the best possible way. Even skip the earning money issue. It will come. 

Do you really think that your "right" choice offers you security and certainty for your future? One thing is certain about that future, that it is enormously uncertain for you. Then why should you go for a goal? Actually it will give you winkers. Too much focus without even recognizing there is so much more to discover (to learn) in life. Yes, indeed, maybe only that one goal ... to LIVE life.

Wrong study choice? Does that exist? Take a nice walk on the path that is (already) created and waiting for you. Provides you less stress, more fun and gigantic beautiful experiences exploring your life while walking it. And at the end of every day be proud of yourself. Turn around, see what you have learned and know that you have already reached again a destination. There are no errors in it. They are only development moments.

Not only does it make your life much more colorful, it makes you a more colorful and broader-oriented person.

And, knowing your parents really want you to have a good future, don’t you think seeing a sustainable happy son or daughter makes them happy and thankful? And yes, maybe this needs some time.

Good trip insured (not even insurance required). You'll get there! True? Yes, that is why you can regard this form of life as an expedition. Something that most people only temporarily dare to do during their holidays to ... relax, gain experiences, make new contacts, embark on an adventure. Isn't that a bit strange?

Turn your entire life (and study) into an expedition. Worrying about the right study choice or the right entry level isn't worth to be part of it for you. It's all about your happiness.

Gangey Gruma (Frans Captijn)

Captijn InsightCatalyst in developing tranquility & in-sight to get in a sustainable way real connection, purpose, pleasure and flow in life, love, family, business, career and work again.

Friday, June 14, 2019

Disturbed relationships between parents and children. How full can you (still) enjoy your life?

It will be a coincidence again, but in less than a week's time, three different people (couples) told me harrowing stories about the disturbed relationships they got with their children. People from America, Germany and Belgium. So, from the western world. Bitterness had arisen and contact between children and parents was almost gone. In one situation contact was totally lost.

Unfortunately, these experiences are not new. In recent years I have heard stories like this much more often. Both from "the children" side as from "the parents" to name the two groups. And mind you, in some situations such as the sexual abuse of children, I can well understand that hatred has grown to the full and that it is no longer or very difficult to turn to something better.
In most situations, however, if you go into the situations and actually the sources of the present situation a little deeper, it is about almost nothing at all. And yes, it is true, everything you give attention grows. It makes you blind to all the good things there once were and you ruin not only your own life but also (consciously?) the life of the other. It is brilliant to just wave it 'easy' away, but that is just a clean (or rather dirty) appearance.

It is fairly easy to jump into anger and bitterness. Certainly in Western cultures. In most cases, family ties represent less and less because of individualization. Totally different if you compare that with the culture of Thailand, for example, where family value, above everything else, still takes the highest place. By the way, not something that always has to be decisive for me, but indeed a very large and valuable good.

Why it so often happens that a relationship between parents and children is disturbed at some point has in my experience everything to do with generation differences, different thinking, different norms and values, wishes and desires, expectations (expressed afterwards) about upbringing, communication possibilities (and difference in education about this between children and parents), the enormous influence of a partner with whom the children come home, disagreement on something with the other, and certainly also respect.

In all three stories I heard last week, "loosing face" plays a huge role. The parents keep on telling nice stories to the outside world how fantastic things are with them and sometimes even how proud they are of their children. "Nothing wrong”.
What they actually do with this behavior is to continuously poison themselves and make themselves sick. A kind of not true Facebook “happy family” showing selfie while everyone around them knows and feels that it is rattling on all sides and is just "fake."

Just those "small" harassment's as expressions of anger and bitterness. Not giving attention. Trying to avoid seeing and meeting each other. Not responding to emails. No message to your parents on Father's or Mother’s Day. No more visits to birthdays, let alone congratulations. Keeping grandchildren away. Focusing on and enlarging disagreements instead of respecting differences. Introducing very strict black-and-white rules and conditions for when there might be another meeting. Etc., etc .. Entering all kinds of unnatural behavior and puppet show.

Parents often see their children totally changed after their marriage and see sides of their daughter or son they hadn't thought possible. Bitterness ... and for what? What does it serve and solve?

There is a saying: “Bitterness is a poison that YOU drink, hoping to kill the other.” That we cling to anger and resentfulness of how someone has wronged us, how someone has hurt us, or those we love. So we hold on to the bitterness towards the other not realizing the cause and harm it does to us. Failing to see the odorless, colorless, venom we guzzle down. Robing us of fullness of life.

Anger is a natural part of being human. Anger is part of our humanity. The matter of concern is what we do with this anger. It is the anger that becomes a kind of spreading cancer. It is an anger like a fire that a person constantly feeds. Refusing to let die. Even when it is only embers, they stoke it desiring it never to be extinguished. That is not fullness of life.
It is so easy to slip into such a toxic one-sided relationship with those who have hurt us. 

The first step to abundance of life is to let it go. See it as a personal invitation. That’s forgiveness and the meaning of forgiveness is ‘give a new chance’. Something different than give a second chance only under your own conditions. It is changing your heart to draw the poisons of bitterness and anger from your wounds and protects you from regret afterwards.

And this does not mean that you, as a son or daughter, have to accept any kind of submission to your parents. Far from it. After all, it's all about mutual respect. Parents can often be and remain rather stubborn. It is an opening up to each other and sometimes even listening to each other without judging.

When I spoke to my Thai girlfriend about it, it made her sad. It is hard to understand all this from the Eastern culture she lives. A matter of respect. Your parents offered you your life.  You can almost always assume that they have done your upbringing with the best of intentions. Based on their own norms, values, background, possibilities, education and situation they were in at that time. The deeper underlying intention was not based on not giving you any opportunities or destroying you. It was to try the best. And yes, afterwards you can look at it differently with the insights of today.

Even in the so-called Wai, the Thai greeting with hands in the form of a lotus flower bud, the Thai raise their hands in front of them when they greet their parents. The thumbs under the nostrils. Your parents gave you the opportunity to breathe and thus enjoy this life. A form of respect.

I have often heard the story that people on the deathbed of their father or mother still just got that insight to accept differences in opinion. You don't have to hate each other because you disagree. On the other hand you may respect other choices because you have only held up your own mirror and have often been guided by influences of others. Differences in opinion make the world more colorful. After all, your side is only one. True for you but not the whole truths.

Don't be stupid, stop disturbing living the fullness of your life (and that of others). Do not wait any longer. Give up your stubbornness and bitterness. Never regret it.

We are all running out of time…


Gangey Gruma (Frans Captijn)
Captijn InsightCatalyst in developing tranquility & in-sight to get in a sustainable way real connection, purpose, pleasure and flow in life, love, family, business, career and work again.


Friday, June 7, 2019

Your body is 'worthless'. It is all about the soul.

So far, I have seen many lifeless bodies in my life. That certainly has to do with my former career in international aid and disaster management.

You actually see it right away and you feel it immediately. I think a lot of people know this experience. Something has gone from one moment to the next, something has left. I see this something like the spark, the energy supplier, the passion, the drive. I call it, no it is, the soul.

You can see a body. We often do everything we can to continue to be seen or to stay part of the flock, and yet ... without that soul it will become nothing. You can use makeup what you want or get whatever plastic and/or cosmetic surgery, but without a soul it is nothing and it remains nothing. A beautiful, meaningless, dead image that remains.
On the other hand, you can feel the soul.

I have often experienced that when someone enters a room, for example on a birthday or in a meeting, the space is suddenly filled. Attention is attracted to him or her and yes, a beautiful woman can be attractive, yet there is more. It is energy. Rest, calmness or, on the contrary, enthusiasm and / or passion. It is energy that comes from the soul.

Without a soul your body is worthless. Although all or at least most of us pay utmost attention to our body, that outside, that inside is therefore much and much more important. After all, the real energy of attractiveness and beauty comes from within, from the soul and not from makeup.

A few weeks ago on a morning, I visited the funeral of a good friend of mine. I got a nice experience. That coffin with that lifeless body actually didn't tell me anything, no connection anymore, and that wasn't necessary either. I felt the presence of his energy, of his soul. He was still the "host" at his own farewell reception of his body. The temporary passed away temple of his soul was there without any energy, but you could feel him, his soul energy, all around still very much alive.

When I felt that way, I thought it was strange that almost all of us were dressed in black. Why that color associated with sadness and mourning? Because the body could no longer support the growth of his soul? If my time is there to get rid of my temporary temple, I hope that people who come to my ‘reception’ to only say goodbye to my dead body will come in color. Joy because I am free again and can and will continue.

In general, for me it is also strange that people at cremations or funerals often talk to a coffin with a dead body in it. That soul-spirit is just not there in that coffin anymore. My feeling at least that morning. Actually my trust.

My experience with several very dear ones whose temporary temples (bodies) already passed away, is that you can always start a conversation with them. Even ask them for advise. They live around you and in you. And that only temporary body that you once saw, yes you do no longer see. 
You do not have to lose the feeling of the soul connection if you maintain the link. That is a kind of letting go without losing anything of real value.

Gangey Gruma (Frans Captijn)
Captijn InsightCatalyst in developing tranquility & in-sight to get in a sustainable way real connection, purpose, pleasure and flow in life, love, family, business, career and work again.